Why are there socks in the kitchen?Are they coming or going laundry?

Future or returning

Where does anything start or end?

And what starts the inevitable end

My partner is dying

She’s suffered long enough

still I don’t want to let go

I lost my mother in October

now this

The universe must think I’m tougher

than I believe myself to be

my love, our dog and I

Stuffed into this hospital bed

in this sacred time

Listening to her breath

dreading the whisper of the final one

Captivated by

Unspeakable sadness

and disdain I want to surrender

for those that have left

Us alone 

Through these past few years

Such a beautiful woman

inside and out

I tell her she’s the best thing

to ever happen to me

I’ve learned so much about myself

The road has been uneven,

bumpy, up and down

But it’s where we’re supposed to be

I’m convinced

with a thread of uncertainty

That certain thread that’s woven into everything